Reconciling Different Lives

So I did it. I joined one of those on-line communities where you can find all your old connections from lives past and communicate and send pictures and "write" on their page, etc., etc., etc. It has been fun reconnecting with folks from my different lives. And I mean, my high school life, my early childhood life, my college life.
But I have found a particular problem. I went to my high school reunion several years ago. Overwhelmed at seeing everyone again for the first time in ten years, embarrassed by my weight gain and sagginess (I hadn't thought about the fact that EVERYONE gains weight and EVERYONE gets saggy over time. Plus, I'd just had a baby!) thinking I would never see these people again, I cow-towed to the norm and blended in. Instead of standing firm in my faith, I left it at the door and walked right in to socialize, reconnect and "meet people where they were" and then join them. Now, lest your little imagination carries you away, let me just clarify. I didn't DO anything wrong. Nothing illegal or immoral was going on here. The problem was I didn't DO anything. I didn't stand out, like I always did in high school. I didn't take my stand with Christ.
At the time, I figured it didn't really matter because I wouldn't see these people again in ten years, at least and they wouldn't remember the last reunion anyway. But then I joined this on-line thingy. And I started finding friends, and they started finding me. And I have this blog linked to my homepage and wondered how many would go here and shake their heads, thinking, 'What a hypocrite.' Well, if that's YOU right now, shaking your head...here is my most sincere apology for momentarily laying down my witness to fit in. I don't know of any other way to reconcile my behavior and who I am other than to apologize.
And this is a warning to any who do walk with Christ: you don't get a "down moment". There is no "down time" with Jesus. You are ALWAYS on point. It ALWAYS matters. And its much easier to be authentic in your faith than to clean up the mess you made because you laid it down.
A quote from our Beth Moore Bible study seems fitting to end this post: "In the eyes of the world, it is not our relationship with Jesus Christ that counts; it is our RESEMBLANCE to Him!"