I’m a bit down today. Could be the gray clouds and seemingly random rain showers. Could be more. Today my heart aches for several reasons:
1) Every time my hubby gets a “no” from a possible job lead. Or silence. That’s always nice. Watching your man maintain strength after multiple closed doors is painful.
2) A loved one is having family issues. Major family issues. I haven’t been able to talk to them in the past week and am wondering how things are going and if she’s still breathing. (Not literally, but you know what I mean.)
3) This one may seem so stupid, but I watched the new season beginning of John and Kate Plus 8 and about cried. If you know anything about that family of 2 sets of multiples you’ll know that they’ve been in the media lately for supposed scandals. And to watch them have to go through publically what would be traumatic enough privately was about more than I could take. Such carefully chosen words and painstaking care to hide emotions. To have to explain yourself to people who think they have the right to know your business. And the children. Don’t even get me started on the impact this will have on their kids. And can I just say as a side note that the media needs some serious lesson in manners? In knowing the fine line between “getting the news” and minding their own stinking business?
4) Selfishly, I had offered to help a loved one through a difficult situation and received silence as the response. Now, I learned a long time ago that I am not the center of the universe, the gravitational pull does not go in my direction and therefore people’s response to me (or lack thereof) is not necessarily because of me but just life happening. I get that. Really. But in this particular instance, looking in from the outside, I see how much relief could have come if they had just accepted the help. And now the opportunity has passed and I wonder how they are doing. And if they are going to make it. And I just so WISH they would have accepted my offer. And I wonder why they didn’t.
Any heartaches you want to share today? Anything weighing heavy on your mind? Let’s share and then lift each other up in prayer, hmm? I’m game, are you?
I empathize with your pains. I am sorry you are experiencing them - they are no fun.
ReplyDeleteThis may sound pithy or trite but it is no less true - there can not be new growth without some death, some rain, and eventually, a lot of sunshine. I love The Message version of this verse in Isaiah 43:18&19:
"Forget about what has happened; don't keep going over old history. Be alert, be present. I'm about to do something brand new. It's bursting out! Don't you see it? There it is! I'm making a road through the desert, rivers in the badlands."
But while you are experiencing your heartaches, I offer you Psalm 56:8(The Message):
"You've kept track of my every toss and turn through the sleepless nights, each tear entered into your ledger, each ache written in your book."
He counts all our tears. I will pray for you and He will answer.
I have a heartache to add. A loved-one has broken off relationship with me a long time ago. I continue to be sad about this but I accept that this is how they want it to be. Until recently, my children were exempt from this ostracizing. They still received well-wishes on holidays and birthdays. But this past weekend was my daughter's 11th birthday and she did not receive so much as a card from them. I am sad that the brokenness that continues to exist between myself and this person has now extended to my children. This slight was not lost on my daughter and I have no words to explain why she would have been "forgotten". You can hurt me, but I die a little inside when someone rejects/hurts my children. This is my heartache this week.
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. It must have been an unintentional oversight. You know how much that loved one desired to get to know Devon. Hard to explain to an eleven-year-old, I know. So sorry.
Yes, as Christians we should pray for others but I am really praying for the Gosselin children who are put in a situation not of their choice. Jon and Kate should have "pulled the plug" on their public appearances and focused on their family. They contacted the media, gave interviews to People magaine, Larry King and others about their "private affairs". Kate posed for many pictures recently while in NC, on the beach in bikinis and showing the scars from her recent breast enhancements. What kind of moral example is she setting for her children? The Gosselins use the media for their own attention as much as the media uses them. Kate spent many days away from her family speaking and book signing and made sure the press knew about that. Many bought her books and photos of her children because Kate led them to believe they still need the money. Kate wears shoes that cost hundreds of dollars which could feed my family for two to three weeks. But the bottom line is the children are dragged into this because the parents will not get a job in the private sector and stay home and focus on the family.
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